jdksldjse

Wed, 09 May 2007 04:05:56 GMT

i can't wait for summer.
and i have a new love for the show scrubs

Thu, 19 Apr 2007 02:43:00 GMT

my mouth is swollen and all shredded up. i'm miserable.

Sun, 01 Apr 2007 20:03:32 GMT

indecisive and unmotivated

Fri, 30 Mar 2007 03:50:50 GMT

i'm not the reason our friendship is in this predicament.
i may be part of it, but a friendship takes two.
get real. try to meet me halfway because right now
i'm not sure that you're worth my time

my priorities are in order.
ambition is lacking, but i'm told it's genetic

i cannot wait until i get out of this town.
i'm hoping to go to singapore by the end of this year.
unfortunately, i can't just take 3 weeks off schoool to go and chill in singapore.

i AM going by the end of the year. my dad said even if i can't go with him i can stay with his friends there . i suppose i should get a new passport, i lost my old one hhaha. my badd.

what is the fascination with cabo, mexico, the carribean, etc?
i don't understand.

Wed, 21 Mar 2007 22:30:21 GMT

i NEEED a job.
ideas? good ideas?
help, please.

Sun, 18 Mar 2007 03:11:12 GMT

i think it's not that i'm too shy,
i think it's just that i choose to not make friends with people.
i'm not into this highschool bullshit
where you make friends with everyone
and you all act all buddy buddy and talk tons of shit.
i'm tired of talking shit with people who relay it to others.
from now on i'm only talking shit to people like ali who won't go around telling everyone what i have to say. haha.

i'm happy with the people in my life. i love sleeping. i like going to movies. i like talking movies and music with my dad, because he has much better opinions than most people my age. i love my family as a whole, especially my dad's side. i can see similarities between them and me and i hope that i'm half as successful and happy as they have all turned out when i'm older. i like driving. i like going out to breakfast. someone needs to start going out to breakfast with me on saturdays. ohh and i love my dog. i'm worried about her, if i have to put her to sleep i have no idea what i will do, probably have my yearly mental breakdown.

but i'm trying to stay positive so i'm going to stop before i get sad.

my friends are amazing. the few that i have.
i want a boyfriend, but whatever. i haven't met someone that really interests me, at all.

i'm going to get back in contact with a few people.
i reallllllly miss gus, our small little group had such goood times.

i love the koooks. i hope i can see them may 5th.

ohh and me and kelsey are doing much hanging out over springbreak. which is good. tonight was the first night in like 4 months when we've actually made plans and not cancelled them. although we saw premonition which sucked ass.

ps. my phone's dictionary doesn't have 'premonition'. moral of the story : nokia needs to revise their dictionary.

also, i'm realllly hyper. today is a good day. i thnk this summer will be a good summer.

and i really want kelseys moms car. it is sweet and its fast. which means it willl be an automatic no from my dad.

Fri, 19 Jan 2007 01:53:13 GMT

i needd a job
i'm very content with my life right now.
things are goood.

Fri, 12 Jan 2007 00:40:36 GMT

i got in the most pointless argument tonight.

blah blah blah. at least i won.

Sun, 24 Dec 2006 06:13:42 GMT

i sort of want to become brutally honest with a few people,
but i know it will just be turned around on me.

Wed, 20 Dec 2006 00:04:45 GMT

ew. creeepy guy came to my door about using renewable resources, and i had no idea what to do so i answered it and he was like likee "sign it balh balh ablh" but i wrote the wrong phone number because that is creepy!

ughh. and my day has been weird.

Sun, 17 Dec 2006 20:08:29 GMT

yesterday (saturday) i got reallly sick.
which ruined my christmas spirit
i think it was a 24 hour bug
because i woke up today and im fine

schoooool is bring me down.
im trying to bring my grades up
but i just don't know how far i can bring them up in 2 weeks
plus finals.
i never do well on finals.
goddd

Thu, 14 Dec 2006 22:34:33 GMT

i'm excited for christmas!
next weeek is packed with things to do

kelsey's birthday is sunday!
neat-o

blah blah blah.
my mom better take me out to dinner tonight
or i'll be forced to killl her!

my aunt got my christmas present.
last year she got me this gnar sweater & vest
but i have a feeeling she got me something good
because the purse she waas going to get me sounded pretty sweeet

i still neeed to shop for everyone.
hangg

Fri, 08 Dec 2006 04:01:49 GMT

i need an unbiased ear to vent to, someone who can be my friend but keep a fair perspective and not think differently of me negatively by the time i'm done.

how you know i used to hang out with hippies..

Wed, 06 Dec 2006 04:03:16 GMT

today in the 7 degree weather. i wore a coat jeans and socks to the concert... no shoes.
it was pretty comfy, i must say. this girl was listening to me and ally talk about my lack of shoes, and i'm pretty sure she thinks i'm leading an impoverished life. hahaha. or else she just thinks im deranged. who cares her last name rhymes with prostitute.

anyway. i think i may just continue this, and hope it catches on.
if not, i'll be making a trip to greenfields to buy these sweet moccasin/boots this girl in my math class has.
even though, i'd want to seriously hurt someone if they purposely bought my shoes.
but she bought my gold flats, so if i buy her moccasin/boots were even.. i think.

i have to write a journalism column. ick. oh well. i'm really good at bullshitting.

people who listen to hear-say and don't have the courage to confront someone about it are gay as hell, and yes i am referring to britnee braindead TM certainly not a loss, but i think it's pretty lame she couldn't just ask me if i talk shit about her.

i'm fueled by clementines, turkey sandwiches, and diet coke . that's all i've eaten in the past 2 days. interesting. i think it 's one of those phases i go through with foods. it was this time last year when i lived off peanut butter and jelly. everyday breakfast & lunch. that's all i'd eat.

Thu, 30 Nov 2006 01:00:54 GMT

how twisted is it that i'm making an effort to be friends with people i don't even want to know?

i hate school... art school was so much more laidback. and everyone was there because we had similar interests. and even if you didnt have class with people you still introduced yourself and said "heyy i see you everyday i'm liv.. bla hblah blah". if i said that to anyone at valpo i would get a dirty look or get shot.

break is going to be marvelous, i hope.

this year has definetly been one of the worst years so far. i'm 16, i'm SUPPPOSED to be having this great year.

happy birthday zach

anyway i hope my schoool year gets better and my year as a whole. its weird that 2007 is only a month away... i still write 2005 on some of my papers.

also, i'm only spending money on people for xmas if i'm sure they're getting me something. i'm tired of spending money on people and not getting anything in return. i hate to sound like a scrooge, but people are seriously pissing me off lately.

Sat, 14 Oct 2006 23:40:24 GMT

i suck at this whole livejournal thing.

ps. my mom is a tyrant

stuck in reverse

Mon, 18 Sep 2006 03:15:09 GMT

when i was younger i always felt older than everyone my age.
but now that i'm older, i don't know. whatever.

i think to much.
i love coldplay
i'm going to sleep

" After all the thousand times I've told you I love you, how could you let one word break your faith

Tue, 12 Sep 2006 22:26:30 GMT

i'm tired of being single.
but i'm far too picky for my own good.
eh.

i got my year book yesterday,
my picture is terrible
and christian looks stoned like no other.

no one else was too memorable in the year book,
welll one person,
but they don't matter much anymore.

Tue, 05 Sep 2006 02:21:39 GMT

i worry too much.

i'm making changes.
maybe you'll notice,
maybe you won't.
they're changes for me
and no one else.

Tue, 22 Aug 2006 00:30:49 GMT

i remember when i didn't take shit from anyone.

i could elaborate, but just to leave you hanging i won't

dreams

Wed, 16 Aug 2006 14:31:07 GMT

^{_{i had the absolute weirdest dream last night
it was like harry potter meets my family meets fifa meets ali's family.
it was tripppy as hell.
& some sort of beast that we were supposed to kill
but we didnt.
and for awhile we were all beavers.

so maybe we should add like chronicles of narnia into that.

and then my dream ended with who i think was shelly, but i'm not sure
and she came into my room and everyone (random friends)were all sleeping
so i was like "didn't you see the fucking sign on your way in?"
(in real life, i have a sign that i now put on the door that gives the date with a do not disturb/i'm sleeping sign)
& she comes in and is like "I BROUGHT EVERYONE COOKIES"
and then she says she's in a hurry to get to work so she has to leave
so me and the random people all go downstairs, the only people i really remember are tyler ali, and it was like "ali's cousin"
and we're downstairs, and someone wrote alll over the oriental rug in our family room .
so we try to see what was used to write on it, and the second we touch it it's like the rug was bleached.

welll as a kid growing up it was like "get juice on the oriental rug and your dead"
so i don't know what this dream is telling me about my psyche but it was weirdd.
and ii think i dreamed this most of the night so it's a lot longer.}}

Tue, 15 Aug 2006 04:03:34 GMT

i'm taking my dog for accupuncture tomorrw morning
it's fascinating.

i'm dead

Sun, 13 Aug 2006 23:54:51 GMT

figuratively.

i need to get my blood tests done.
no person should function like this.
all i do is sleep
& when i'm not sleeping
i'm tired.

aghh.

we're gonna stay like this forever

Sat, 12 Aug 2006 19:50:44 GMT

i don't expect people to stay the same forever.
but this constant changing within people is overdone.
yes you create yourself. but when you keep redoing things
its get old. like the backstreet boys,
they've had so many "new images" no one even cares anymore.
no one cares about you anymore.

i think i overestimated people's values.
it wouldn't be the first time.

Fri, 03 Mar 2006 21:23:24 GMT

my thoughts are scrambled.
and my words are skewed.

my head is perpetually groggy,
and no matter how much i sleep
i'm always completely wiped out.